Without Emotion

So, My mother past away four and a half years ago. I can remember this as if it was yesterday. On this beautiful clear Monday morning about 7:15 a.m. my phone ringed. I looked at the caller ID and noticed it was a cousin I rarely speak with. I answered the phone and my cousin called my name in a voice that immediately alerted me something was wrong. I said, “what’s up cuz”? With a trembling voice evident he was crying he replied, ” your mom died this morning”. I was crushed! I felt this way for a week. My concern is since then I have not felt anything. I also forget the day my mother died. Is this normal or am I messed up?  I find myself without emotion with many things.

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